In My Boudoir..... I Let My Thots Run Free

2010-04-01T17:41:00.002+08:00

A kind soul told me, I have a genius in the making.

A no of prominent people are born with it and still be successful. Genius in fact. Thomas Edison. Agatha Christie. Picasso. Even LKY.

Even despite knowing that, I still find it hard to accept. Am I such a bad mother that I cant accept the lil one's short coming?

The more I read, I realised the signs are all there. I simply didn't recognised it. I feel so guilty for telling her off every so often. Little did I realised, her brain simply can't processed it. Its a neurological disorder. A life long challenged.

A challenged I must overcome..but what if I'm not apt enough for it?

I just want to sleep and hoping that when I woke its a just a bad dream.

2010-03-27T19:43:00.001+08:00

I'm not a Hindustan fan. Neither are my children. But this afternoon the 3 of us were glued watching Taare Zameen Par (Every Child is Special).

A story about a boy who has learning difficulties. For some who knows, my girl has some difficulties in her studies... err no.. she doesn't has any learning disabilities, simply a late bloomer.

Sophia who often can't sit still, for once was engrossed watching esp the part where the boy was struggling with his lesson in class. Something I believe she can relates to.

And there's the part where the teacher uses the sensory method to teach the boy, Sophia exclaimed "i learnt that". She's referring to her 1-to-1 session with her therapists.

But what really saddens me was that, when at the end of the story, Sophia came to me

Sophia: he can write already?
Me: Yes
Sophia: he can read also?
Me: Yes
Sophia: then how about me? i can read also? I want to go primary 1 at Abang's school.
Me:

(Thats how much confident she has in herself.)

YES Sophia, you will be able to read. And you will go Primary 1.

She still has a long way to go. A lot of work to be covered. But I know, insya allah, she's be able to do it.

I KNOW YOU CAN, my dearest.

Come April... will be a busy month for Sophia.
Her date with her Senior Psychologist in a few days time.
Her date with her Speech Therapist
Her date with the Special Educator.

2009-12-30T17:38:00.002+08:00

My 1st update for the year 2010 Would I continue to update regularly thereafter, I know not. Will see.

I can't say 2009 has been a good year nor can I say its bad. It has its up & downs. Good & bad memories. C'est la vie!

But if there's one lesson I learnt in 2009 is that what should have remain as a footnote shouldn't be made part of the main chapters of my life. After all a footnote is merely a supplement to the main chapter. Hence as the name suggest a "FOOTnote" should remain at the bottom of the chapter.

To those who had send me well wishes for the new year.
"Thank you. Love you peeps loads"

To all, Have a blessed year ahead. May this year be better than the last.

I expect some changes, but I know not to what extend.

All I ask for the new year, for the strength to face whats lies ahead and that the future is not as bleaked as I was made known.

"Therefore I live for today. Certain of finding at sunrise guidance and strength for the way. Power for each moment of weakness, hope for each moment of pain, comfort for every sorrow, sunshine and joy after rain."

- Anonymous

2009-12-03T12:13:00.002+08:00

Last nite I met up with my besties and other friends. For some of them, the last we met was 4 years ago

As I was looking through the photos taken last nite. I realise, in them I was smiling so wide. The "advertise for darlie" kind of smile. Most time I had to hold back my laughter just to get a decent photos. Had so much fun & laughter. Lots of catching up too.

After all the bad news that I've been dealt with, the last couple of months, I momentarily shelf all negative thots aside last night.

Thank you dearest frens for the company & laughter

Here's a pic taken with my besties

Will upload the rest if or when I've the time.

Singapore GrandPrix 2009

2009-09-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

Anyone else going?
I will be the the Pit Grandstand

2009-09-19T10:40:00.001+08:00

Wishing all muslims
Eid Mubarak Minal a'idin wal fa'izin wal makbulin, kullu am, wa antum bikhair...insya allah.

2009-05-15T17:01:00.000+08:00

2009-04-21T20:18:00.000+08:00

I need suggestions/ideas what should be given to a Ustaz/Ustazah after someone had khatam Quran.

Any suggestion, anyone??

2009-03-31T15:57:00.001+08:00

I was wondering has anyone tried giving their kids High Q+ by Herbal Pharm, I think.

Whats the feedback for those who has tried it?
Please reply to this post or email me faridah2005@gmail.com

All opinions/replies are much appreciated.

Thanks

2009-03-27T20:42:00.004+08:00

Time for me to blow the dusts of this blog of mine. Hardly find the time to reply to emails... whats more to update my blog.

Today brought the kids to the airport with mom right after school. Mom gave us a treat @ Swensens :D

The kids were of course happy to have their ice creams... Chewy Chocolate Fudge or something like that. Me & mom shared banana crumbled. And this we ate after we had our main meal. Right now, I don't even dare to think of the no of calories that I've consumed ....aaarrgghh!!

Really need to watch what I eat for the next few weeks. I want to at least maintain my jeans size 26... ideally I want to go 2 size down... oh well, at my age, I'll be happy if I can maintain size 26.

Today Izz received yet another letter from his pen pal...

This time its from the states :)
So far all his penpals are all girls. Gonna need to find him some boys pen pal soon.

Lots of things that I wanted to blog about. But sometimes, saying nothing, is really saying everything.

2009-01-19T15:51:00.002+08:00

I've lost someone dear to me before...but nothing beats the sadness that I feel in losing Babah.

He may not be my biological father. He is my ustaz.
To me having him & Bonda taking me as their daughter.... is a priceless gift. Honoured too in having akhi who is an al Hafiz regarding me as his ukhti..... Jazakallahu khaira

Without me having to tell him...Babah often knows when I'm in need of help.

He is my anchor in keeping me grounded.

He is also my barriccade in preventing me from swaying to the other side.

I feel blessed in knowing babah & his family.

What I've learned under his tutelage is priceless.

My only regret is he won't be around during my khatam...

Allahumma ighfir lahu warhamhu wa aafihi wa'afua anhu wa akrim nuzulahu
Al Fateha ...

2008-11-21T11:47:00.000+08:00

Perhaps Love

Perhaps love is like a resting place
A shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort
It is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble
When you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home

Perhaps love is like a window
Perhaps an open door
It invites you to come closer
It wants to show you more
And even if you lose yourself
And don't know what to do
The memory of love will see you through

Love to some is like a cloud
To some as strong as steel
For some a way of living
For some a way to feel

And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
And some say they don't know

Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict, full of pain
Like a fire when it's cold outside
Thunder when it rains

If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you

2008-11-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

Even now that I'm back to living the gray flannel life,
Whenever I turned off to sleep....
Memories creeps ...
Putting a smile a face

ses désirs est rassasié

2008-11-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

Its was her 7th anniversary on 2 zulkaedah...
She would have been 7yrs.....
Its been 7yrs since she left .... according to the islamic calendar that is.
I've never stop missing her.

As much as I believe in Qada' & Qadar...
As much as I believe she's in a much better place
And I know Allah loves her more...
Somehow it doesn't ease the pain.
I've never stop missing her.

Some part in me don't really want to let go....
Maybe I'm afraid.....
Afraid that ...I would really lost her then.

I know she wasn't mine to begin with.
I know she was only loaned to me for a very short time.

And...
I'm very thankful for that short precious time that I have her.

2008-11-01T00:31:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, my lil boy is supposed to be revising his school work, but he chose that time to write a reply to his penpal instead.

And he ends his letter .....

.... Izz in S'pore while his penpal is in Yokohama....
isn't that far far away from a 5 year old perspective ;)

2008-10-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

Far too often we wear disguises in life.
Its the only facade that allows us to achieve which we seek.

To love is too see beneath the mask while suffering no change in the feeling...

2008-09-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

This year, things didn't go as smoothly as the previous years. Lots of things remain undone. Lots of things are not to my satisfaction.

Nuha's baju kurung is finally ready to be collected. However to my frustration, she couldn't fit in to the baju. Its fortunate that I have contingency plan.

Enuf about the baju, Nuha finally requested to pierce her ears. Oh well, not that she asked to pierce her ears, she actually requested for a pair of earings/earstuds. After getting her ears pierced, she cried only for a very short while.

Izz managed to fast for 30days!! Alhamdulillah... Marha! Marha!

Need to continue with the touch up of my house.
Meanwhile.... just to a share a useful info taken from Dyntv.com

Sunnah-sunnah di Hari raya

Eid Mubarak
Minal a'idin wal fa'izin wal makbulin, kullu am, wa antum bi khair...insya allah
(May you be part of the people who return to purity and part of the people who are granted glory, and part of the people who’s prayers are answered. All in all, may you well / in good health if Allah permits.)

SINGAPORE GRAND PRIX

2008-09-28T23:44:00.001+08:00

More pics will be update later ... after I've cleared the chaos in my house.

2008-09-23T18:20:00.000+08:00

There's only about a week left in Ramadhan.

Izz so far have managed to fast without missing a single day, alhamdulillah Only problem, recently, it started to be difficult to wake him up for sahur. Often he said he can fast without sahur.

To get him up for sahur, I enticed him with tidbits like

chocolate milk, yanyan, etc etc. Other times, he would asked me to

read his book to him as he eat

As for Nuha, she woke up for sahur a couple of times. Other times, her sahur would be her first meal after she woke up. Nuha so far managed to fast for the last two weeks, although she did miss a day or two.

About a week ago, Nuha requested for kuih lapis, which she called rainbow kuih. She insisted on carrying it herself. On the way home, I realised she kept trying to lag behind. Its only later, that I realised, she's been trying to eat the kuih lapis as she walked. By the time I'm home, the kuih da macam kena gigit tikus.

Whateva it is, for a 3 year old, I would say, she did very well in her attempt to fast.

Now its time for me to finish cleaning up the house. Won't be online for the next few days.

I'm taking this opportunity to wish everyone,

Eid Mubarak
Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin

This year, will be my first Raya without any of my grandparents

2008-09-23T00:28:00.002+08:00

Initially I wanted to delete this blog. But for sentimental reasons, I decided not to. After closing this blog for a few months, I decided to open it up again.

This is where I first started to blog a few years ago.

This time I'm making some changes to this site.
There are things that, now, I don't wish to be made public.
There are photos that I wished to be kept hidden.
For personal reasons.
Until I've completed my housekeeping to this site, my past archives will remain unaccessible.

Right now, I'm more active at my other 2 sites. Will update here as and when its possible.

When I first started to blog, its basically due to me being curious & wanting to learn.
The wonders of cyberworld, it allows one to make new friends and be reacquainted with old ones.

I've been meeting my long lost friends thru blogging, forums, multiply, facebook, friendster, etc.
So did Dear.
So did many others.

It's always great meeting familiar faces that you've lost touched.
Walking down memory lanes.
Reliving the past.
Unwittingly old feelings resurfaced.
Feelings that are thought long gone & forgotten.
Feelings that are best kept buried.

Feelings' an enigma, I would say.

The reality is, it is always easier to judge when you are on the other side of the fence. But when you are right smack where the actions are, more often than not, you would react in a similar if not the same way.

For now, I am ..
thankful that my two feet are still firmly on the ground;
thankful that the voice of reasons still prevailed.

Two days ago, Bonda, Ukhti & Akhi went for their Umrah Ramadhan. Ukhti came to see me the day before she left. For someone who won't cried in public, I cried as Ukhti & I hugged.

I got to know Ukhti & family in the month of Rejab last year. In such a short time, we've become very close. I'm not one who opened up easily. But with them, its different. Wished I had meet them much much earlier. When I was much younger. Maybe then, I would turned out differently. Better. Maybe.

I've finally taken my first of the three doses of the cancer vaccine last month. The next dose would be in a weeks time. After which, comes November, I will be going back to the clinic for a retest. Hoping for a clear results this time.

The finally dose of the vaccine will only be taken next year.

Islam is for all & All is for Islam

2008-05-07T17:15:00.001+08:00

Alumni Al Zuhri is organising a motivational seminar

on 19 May 2008
@ Masjid Hasanah
$5 per pax
9am - 1 pm

Speakers are
Ustaz Abdul Rahman Sahid &
Ustaz Fadhlur Rahman Akbar

Interested please call
Syafiq 81493009

2008-01-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

Salam Ma'al Hijrah 1429.
May the new year brings more blessings to us all
Kullu 'Aam wa Antum Bikhair

22.12.2007

2007-12-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

Today the kids had their orientation. However I skipped going to Nuha's orientation in the morning. Instead, I only went at noon to Izz's orientation.

Next year, Nuha will be in Nursery- Bahamas class, whereas Izz will be in K1 - Fiji class. Met up with Seri to go to the orientation together. Seri's daughter, Nuha, gonna be Izz's classmates

Izz & his classmate Afrah Annuha. Since we also called her Nuha, Izz called her Nuha 2, so as not to confuse with his sister Nuha

Then I took a look at Nuha's classroom...ermmm "my very own Nuha". Nuha's class is directly opposite to Izz's
In the middle is the sketch of the Nuha's teacher & ustazah...of course..they are much prettier in person. The sketch doesn't do justice at all....tsk! tsk!

After the orientation met up with my parents to get my bro his present & cake. Its is 25th birthday

This time I got him a cheesecake....cos its my favourite

Later that nite, while I was talking to Izz about his new class. He said he wanted to change class. He wanted Teacher Ct!! Actually while we were in his new class, he already told me, "I want to change class. I want Teacher Ct".

Teacher Ct was his class teacher when he's in Nursery.

I hope by the time school reopens he'll be able to accept his new teachers. Gonna pray hard that he won't throw tantrums.

2007-12-03T16:47:00.002+08:00

The kids & I have been going out for the past few days. Photos yet to be uploaded. Not much photos were taken thou...but lots of shopping . Buuuttt.... I only shop for the necessities Most of the kaching were spent on food. I must have put on kilos...whats with the pretzel, donuts, apple crumble, latte-s, frappuccino-s, etc ...etc.

Brought the kids to the library today. Returned & borrowed a few books.

Now I'm gonna spend the next few days reading this
The Witch of Portobello

and

The Alchemist

2007-11-19T12:15:00.000+08:00

Today officially the school holidays kick in I've a few projects line up for this holiday. Its just that I'm not sure if I'm able to accomplish them all.

On the last day of school, I gave the teachers a small token as an appreciation of their hard work. Nothing fancy or expensive.
For teacher Siti & Ustazah Mas. Izz really enjoyed being in their class. Even now he kept saying he wants teacher Siti next year. Hopefully Izz will be able to adapt to his new teacher & ustazah next year.

For Teacher Erah of Hawaii 1. Teacher Erah joined the school in August. I'm thankful that Nuha's able to warm up to her in a short time. Her vocab has improved. And now, she's able to express herself more clearly, althou academically she still need some brushing up to do.

Thank you teachers for making Izz & Nuha's learning experience a pleasant, fun & educative one

2007-10-24T11:43:00.001+08:00

That monday nite while waiting for Dear to come home, I did some revision with Izz. Told him to write down his numbers in Arabic. Left him to write them down on his own. Less than 5 minutes later, Nuha shouted..."Mamaaa!! Abam sleeep!!"
Haiz!!...Padahal before this he was happily playing with Nuha and watching cartoon. Suruh belajar dia tidur. Kesian pulak tengok dia gini...His usual bedtime was 9-10pm. Hari tu baru 7+pm. But then he woke up shortly after. Mungkin cari ilham dalam mimpi gaknye.

Yesterday Ustazah Sakinah came over for beraya. Cook for her chicken rice. Only managed to snap a photo while she was eating
Kesian Ustazah. Tak senang nak makan.....my kids kept disturbing her. Jangan serik datang lagi ya Ukhti...Next time datang bawak tr Ct & Ustz Mas. Had extended my invitation to them

2007-10-19T09:43:00.000+08:00

As some of you may know, I fell sick 2 days before Syawal. And I'm thankful that Dear's on leave to do some housekeeping. My lil man, Izz, also a great help to me.

During that time, I did nothing much except lying down and covered myself in blanket. Now & then Nuha would come to me asking for milk. Each time she did that Izz would say,
"Nuhaaa! Nak milk aje. Kan mama sakit"
Kesian Nuha, mintak susu kena marah ngan abang.

Other times I would hear,
"Nuhaa! Serak-serak je (sigh) Wait I tell baba you know"

Or he would say
"Astaghfirullah al'azim! Nuhaa! Tumpah nasi aje." Then he would proceed to kutip all the rice on the floor.

Or,
"Nuhaa! Don't stand in front of the tv!"

Each time after I bathe the kids, Izz would ask Nuha to pick up her own dirty clothes. And he would often said the same dialogue
"Nuha da wash? Come angkat kain kotor"

A few times Izz came to me and said, "Mama da baik belum? Mama sick ke? I sing you a song eh" Then he would proceed to sing me "twinkle twinkle little stars"

Even though I kept telling the both of them not to come near me, they still keep on kissing me.
Izz would come to me and said "Mama sick?" then he would give a kiss.
Then followed by Nuha, "Mama sick?" then she would give a kiss.
After a while they would repeat the the whole thing again.

I guess thats how they fell sick on the 3rd day of Syawal and had to be on MC. They only came back to school last Wednesday.

Izz & Nuha,
Mama love you both so very very much.
My pillar of strength
My pride & joy

2007-09-28T11:53:00.000+08:00

Received a package in the mail yesterday.

Its from the States.

Here's what inside the package

1: Victoria's Secret Very Sexy Mascara

2: Two pieces of very new, very shiny came straight from the mint -
UNITED STATES GOLD DOLLAR COINS (FEATURING GEORGE WASHINGTON).

To Kak Za
Thank you so much May Allah blessed you always ...amiin..

The coins to Dear for his collection & the mascara for me la...

2007-09-01T18:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday the kids had Teacher's Day celebration in school.

They brought with them a small token for their respective teachers and some goodies for the party.

It was the first time Nuha celebrated teacher's day. Unfortunately, yesterday was also the last day she'll be seeing her Ustazah. Once school reopens she'll be left with only Teacher Era and another ustazah.

She managed to capture some photos with Ustazah Sakinah.

After school Dear met up with us as he needed to collect some stuff from a shop nearby to the school. We then had dinner @ KFC

Today Dear will be having yet another race @ Lower Seletar Reservoir till late afternoon. It will be just me & the kids today.

The next few days will gonna be a bit busy. The last time we did it in 2005. This year we gonna did it again...ermm..actually its not we...just him.

Our choice of colour in 2005

Our choice for 2007

Meanwhile the 1 week school holiday has begin. As usual Izz will be having his Holiday Project. As usual his project is simple but yet fun enough for him to do

2007-08-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday Nuha came home with a bruise on her left arm.

I didn't see it when I fetch her home as she was wearing a long sleeve uniform. Dear was the one who discovered it first when he was changing Nuha.

Today when I sent her to school, I would just have to check out with her teacher about it.

2007-07-20T11:19:00.000+08:00

The other day, while I was loitering outside the kids' school, I saw a familiar project was hung on display. Upon looking at it closer, I realised it belongs to Izz :)

Izz school holiday project was hung for display.

2007-07-14T16:10:00.000+08:00

My favret....Victoria's Secrets

Not only I enjoyed them..my kids too.... especially the body butter.

They enjoyed the body butter as much as I do. This time I bought... my all time favourite, Pure Seduction and Strawberry & Champagne.

2007-06-25T11:55:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, managed to toilet train Nuha. In 6 days. Initially I thot I couldn't toilet train her before school reopens, but I'm glad I managed to.

After toilet training her for the 1st 3 days, I've got to stop as we went to a chalet & we slept over at mom's. Even after we reached home, I did not immediately continue to toilet train her as there's so many errands to run and meet ups. Managed to continue last Friday and over the weekend. So far, its been 2 "accident free" days. Bravo Nuha!!

However I still put on a diaper for her when she goes to school and night. I was thinking, she's being in Playgroup and lessons is only one & half hr, I don't want her to spend time going to the toilet or the teachers spending time cleaning up if there's any accident.

I'm hoping for more "accident free" days....althou I don't want to raise my hopes to high. At this stage accident bound to happen.

My darling Nuha

2007-06-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

Hey lovelies & U (u guys know who you are),

I'll be sending Izz for his reading camp so Nuha & I will be free for dates from tomorrow till Wednesday.

You know how to reach me.

And U,...now U can't say I buang kawan... I'm just busy you know... :p

By the way, anyone going to the APM? Those who's going, want to meet up?

2007-05-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

Received this when Izz came back from his Reading Clinic

Looking forward to it. Its gonna be Izz's 1st presentation... :)

2007-05-11T20:21:00.001+08:00

Craftworks the kids done @ skool for Mother's Day

1st craft work done by 2yr old Nuha. Its the 1st I received from her for Mother's Day.

Izz's craftwork

Front view

Flip Over

the kids with their craftworks

them again

To all mothers & mothers-to-be,

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
Have a lovely celebrations everyone :)

2007-04-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

2007-04-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

Last weekend we spent our morning attending seminar organised by the kids school. It was supposed to be a 3-hrs seminar but it was stretched till 2pm.

The seminar began with the recitation of doas by a 6yr old girl from K2 level. Then, talks were given by Iman's Regional Managers & Head Teachers and also by the school consultants. We were also shown some videos of what the Imanites did during class activities. There were a couple of videos of Izz in action. Wonder if I could purchase it?

For those who came expecting to just sit down and listen.....they are in for surprise. During the talks, there were also parents involvement. There were songs & actions to be done by parents. It was hilarious.

The seminar was very informative. It gave us a better insight on what our kids will be learning. We were given ideas on how to fully utilise those "teachable moments" with our kids at home. The speakers also pointed out some common mistakes that parents made when teaching our child.

Each participants were given a goody bag. In the goody bag, inter alia, we received Iman overviews and weekly planner, small Iman mineral water bottle, my son's craft work and class project. Parents will received their child's school work in their respective bags.

some of the stuff inside the goody bag.

Izz's craft work & class project

There's also an exhibition of some of Imanites' work. Sadly, none of my son's work were on display.

Me looking @ some of the exhibits.

Although not all of my questions/queries were answered during the seminars, but I would still say the seminar's worth it. For those who missed it, be sure to catch such talks in the future

2007-04-17T17:39:00.000+08:00

A few days back we passed by Nissan showroom.

Izz proudly said to me, "Mama, mama, you see ....N-I-S-S-A-N ....CAR!!"

Tersengih mama dibuatnya.

I praised him as he knows his alphabets well and able to spell, then proceeded to correct his mistakes. Told him the spelling for "car" is not "N-I-S-S-A-N"...I reminded him of his phonic ...the sound of "C" & "N".

And now each time I passed by Nissan showroom, I smiled.

2007-04-15T13:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday Izz surprised me when he's able to do simple addition. I'm very surprised, nowadays, kids in nursery learn addition. If I remember correctly, I only learn addition when I was in primary school.

Yesterday Izz managed to do all his sums right, the ones given by his teacher and given by me, so I rewarded him with his new specs. Actually, he's been pestering me for his new specs for awhile now since he outgrew his old ones. And I bought one for Nuha too.

And next week, Izz will be learning substraction.

2007-04-12T09:22:00.001+08:00

When to SNEC again...this time I went to clinic C at level 3 instead of the usual Clinic A at level 1.

After registration, went to Room 1 to check my vision & eye pressure, then proceeded to wait outside Rm 10 to see the dr.

While waiting, took some pic, as I was bored.

entrance to clinic C

top view

finally its my turn

For those wondering why my conjunctivitis took so long to recover.... my conjunctivitis finally recovered after 3+weeks. Now I'm being treated for keratoconjunctivitis sicca or more commonly known as "dry eye syndrome".

Its actually my long time problem. I've been having it for years. Its one of the reasons why I stop wearing contact lens. There's no cure for dry eyes but it can be treated. This conditions caused me to feel discomfort & stinging of the eyes and even blur visions. There's one time, my eyes were too dry, that there's a slight tear on my right eye. Fortunately the tear recovered with medication.

In the past, I would rather ignore this problem as I dun want to go thru the hassle of having my eyes check. But ever since I was told that if left untreated, dry eye syndrome can lead to scarring or ulceration of the cornea, and possible loss of vision,... hmmm...better to go thru the hassle than to become blind.

Since its my 1st time having it treated, the dr asked a series of questions. During the questioning, I realised the symptoms are there all along, but I've endure it for so long, that its seem normal to me, even thou its not normal.

Then I proceeded to do Schirmer's test. Its actually a test to check my tears productions. The results is.....to quote the dr ....."not too bad" ... as my eyes secrete abt 11mm of moisture. Normal values is about 10mm.

There's a lot of reasons that causes dry eyes. For mine, based on the results at this stage, the oil glands around my eyes are not working properly hence my tears evaporate too quickly.

Right now I was given some eye drops and to come for review in 3 months time. And if there's no improvement by that time...further test my need to be done such as sending sample of my tears for test or I may even have to consider Punctal plugging

For the next 3 months, every 2-hrly I'm suppose to alternate this 2 eye drops.

eyes lubricant

artificial tears

my 3 months supply of eye drops.......please dun asked how much is the total cost

2007-04-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

Remember I mentioned I was having fever and bad tonsils about the same time as I was having my conjunctivitis?

Now it seems Dear & Izz caught the same bug, haiz. Both are now down with fever and sore throat. And both are now on antibiotics. Izz is on 3 days mc starting from today. Dear is on 1 day mc today.

I've recovered from conjunctivits...hmm...at least it seems so. The redness from both eyes are gone...for good I hope. My eyeballs are no longer hurting. I can now bend down without feeling like my-eyeballs-gonna-pop-out. But my eyes still have a lot of discharge....hmm.

This Thursday, I will be going to the S'pore National Eye Centre for another eye check up. I hope its gonna be my last visit there.

Last week, my previous visit to the SNEC, sil accompanied me. It was so nice of her. She could have spend her time off galivanting around but she used it to accompany me instead. At least I wasn't feeling very bored there. Merci beaucoup ma soeur

On another note, something made my day

Each time Izz is sick, I often told Izz about how he should doa so that he'll get well soon. So earlier in the day when I was giving him his medicine, Izz said, "Izz baca doa eh". Thinking he wanted to recite the basmalah & doa before eating, I replied "ok"

Lo & behold, he proceeded to recite the asma ul husna!! His pronounciation is not clear and he can't recite all, but to me its something. It is an achievement. Well done Izz

2007-03-31T20:29:00.000+08:00

After cracking her head for a while ....

... finally she solved the mystery of the inchworms

...he..he..he! Pandai anak mama buat homework :)

2007-03-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 5am, my pillow wet with my tears...and no.... I wasn't crying in my sleep. My right eyes was in tears. Worse, I realised my right eyes visions blurred!!!

I really dunno what happened. I thot my eyes was improving especially my left eyes. But somehow things worsened for my right eyes overnight.

Called my mom to come over and look after the kids. Once she arrived, I took a cab to

There, the registrations staff told me I've to wait 2-3hrs to see a dr as I don't have an appointment. I waited for an hour before my name was called to do an eye test. True enough, my right eyes blurred. Right now, my right eyes can only see anything the size of an elephant.

Then I waited for another 2+hrs before I managed to see the doctor-on-duty. He said pretty much the same thing as to what the previous dr said. Its conjunctivitis. But he can't figured out why the inflammation didn't go down despites meds. I'm to stop my current meds and he gave me new meds. And he said my right eyes visions will takes time to clear again.

This friday morning, I've an appointment to see Cornea specialist.

From seeing a GP, to an eye specialist, now, I'm gonna see a cornea specialist. The news keep getting better and better ....... haiz.

2007-03-27T13:13:00.000+08:00

By yesterday, both of my eyes were feeling very uncomfortable and looking very red.

my red eyes

I was referred to an eye specialist, however, the dr couldnt get thru the line to the SNEC. Since the dr felt that its imperative that I see an eye specialist ASAP, he referred to eye specialist thru SGH A&E Dept.

Off to SGH A&E that afternoon. My mom looked after the kids. Dear took urgent leave and met me at SGH.

Thats me @ SGH. Since I was having a fever, they made me put on a mask.

The dr on duty, checked me as I complained of fever and sore throat. Later she prescribed meds for tonsils and fever. Then she sent me to the eye specialist.

Just the other day I was saying I felt like taking out my eyes and have it clean so it can cured faster....hmmm ...... thats whats happen at the eye clinic....

The dr clean up my eyes with wet cotton buds. I meant he really clean up my eyes right to the back of my eyes...at least thats what it felt like cos I could really feel he rolled up my eyelids and tried to really open up my eyes. He said he needed to clean the mucus from my eyes and peeled I-dunno-what from my right eyes.

Its not only uncomfortable but very painful. Nothing I could do but to just grip my knees and endure.

I went home with

2 types of eyedrops and 1 eye ointment

medications for my tonsils

Right now, my eyes are still red but it wasn't as bad as yesterday. But its still is very much uncomfortable. And somehow after the clean up, it became a bit sensitive and very dry.

Comes next month, more visits to SGH & SNEC

review for my eye @ Singapore National Eye Centre

review for my tonsils @ SGH ENT Dept

Now its time to go rest my eyes while the kids are at school.

2007-03-25T10:16:00.000+08:00

My conjunctivitis has not cleared. Somehow its worsen.

My left pink eye is now very very red and my right eye is now infected too. And I'm also down with viral flu with very bad headache and sore throat.

The dr changed my medications but with no positive results. This monday will be going for another review.

Dear has been looking after the kids, except today. This morning he's having another race. Good luck dear!

2007-03-22T15:37:00.000+08:00

Down with conjunctivitis since last tuesday. My left eye is not only red but also a bit swollen and itchy. And I felt a slight pressure in my left eye.

Since it is contagious I need to minimise my contact my kids. Dear took leave yesterday and today to send and fetch the kids from school.

I hope it gonna clear soon cos its rather is uncomfortable. At times I felt like my left eye popping out ...

On another note I've been tagged by Ween.

This is the first time I come across such tag.

Resolution : 1024 by 768 pixel (right clik/properties/setting)

Laptop, LCD or CRT monitor : LCD monitor

Been using this desktop since : Early this year

Kaedah (bagi yg tak tau) : Hit “Print Scrn” di keyboard > Ctrl+c > Ctrl+v dalam paint/adobe photoshop..:)

next victim:
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michiamorozita
fluttermum
lynayi
Eimah

2007-03-07T12:28:00.000+08:00

Ever since I sent the kids to school, I’ve made new friends. Bukan budak jer buat kawan., mak budak pun made new friends :)

Recently a lady told me she’s getting married. Well, she’s not a mother but an aunt to one of the kids at school.

Anyway, she was telling us (me and some other mothers) about her marriage preparation. And of course some of us decided to offer our advice and ideas based on our experiences.

She also remarked, how great it will be once she’s married. Mainly she talked about challenges in raising children, being wife and happiness.

This set me thinking.

She’s getting into this marriage with a certain set of expectations. Did she discuss or talk about her expectation with her fiance?

Most couple that I know of, before marriage, talked about the marriage preparations, the house, etc. But these are mainly the physical needs. What about the emotional needs?

I’m reminded of a friend. She went into marriage thinking of having her own children sooner or later. But her hubby then, thought differently. She stayed in the marriage for 10yrs hoping she might change her hubby mind. But to no avail. At last, they parted ways.

Most went into marriage with unspoken expectations a couple has of one another. When these expectations are not met, we’ll be disappointed but can we blame our spouse?

Some women went into marriage thinking, their hubby would spend more time with them, having pillow talks, etc. But what if your spouse has a different set of ideas?

What if a husband thot that after marriage, his wife will longer ask other guys out for dinner or coffee? But then the wife thot differently, thinking its ok as she's just meeting a guy friend.

What if, after being married you realized that your spouse are not what you thot he/she was. Or you discovered another side of him/her which you dislike, what then?

Or worst, what if after marriage, your life becomes a routine? Becomes mundane. You began to take each other for granted. What then?

How do you keep your marriage alive?

Getting married is easy but making a marriage works and alive that required some works by both parties.

2007-02-26T10:57:00.000+08:00

A few days back, I read the above article. Its was published on Berita Minggu dd 18/2/2007. The article touched on lunch partners between the opposite sex - lunch time husband, lunch time wife.

I'm reminded of a friend.

Chatting on MSN or Yahoo is sumthing most of us are familiar with. What bug my friend was that..her hubby been chatting with the same girl every nite... at times till late nite. Not just they meet online, they also exchanged numbers and smses, at times do make appointment to meet at lunch.

While its true, we shouldn't jump to conclusion or make assumption.......a wife has feelings too.

Instead of spending time communicating with the wife & family, hubby rather spends time, pagi petang siang malam chatting with others.

Frankly I too do chat on msn. My guys friend are all married men, needless to say, I'm married too. While I do chat with these men, but I draw a line at chatting with them late at nite or too frequently. I take into consideration my hubby's feelings and their wives' feelings too.

Rather then spending so much time chatting with other men,I rather chat with my hubby right?

And when I chat, I never set any signal to my friends...to indicate thats me and not my husband. Some I know, set a signal to their chat partner, so that their partner will knows its them and not their spouse. Eg like, he would log in then log out before logging in again. Hmmm, if you have nothing hide, why set a signal?

Frankly I'm not against chatting or meeting with the opposite sex. I believe even married couples need their personal space. However I strongly believe in setting a limit ie drawing a line.

I can understand if some women are more comfortable talking with the opposite sex...but is it wise to do too frequently? Especially when both parties are married? I too "talk" to my guy friends, more to get their perspective.

But my personal opinion, its not wise to be too close. All these could lead to what marriage counsellor terms as "emotional affairs".

To me before we do anything.....we ask ourselves 2 things

How would my spouse feels if I do this?
How would I feel if my spouse do this to me?

.....but then some spouse just being lackadaisical......everything "takpe". Different people has different tolerance level.

But then its just my humble opinion...after all I'm just a conservative housewife...

2007-02-21T14:47:00.002+08:00

Its afternoon now...by right i should be at the kids' school waiting for them. But here i am...sitting in front of the pc, typing away...

Dear's on leave today... as surprise for me. He offered to send the kids to school and I stay home. Such a simple and touching gesture....thank you dear.

Anyway, Nuha not schooling today. Yesterday I brought her to the clinic. She's got too much phlegm. This time the dr said there's wheezing sound...haiz. He said based on her medical records, out of 5 times he sees her, 3 times there's wheezing sound. Thats bad.

Both my kids have sensitive lungs.

This time apart from the usual Ventolin and Bisolvon, he gave her lungs tonic - Ketotifen as supplement. Izz will taking it too.

Ketotifen

The dr advised the kids will need to take the lungs tonic for a few months to 1 year depending on their condition.

On another note, earlier this morning, Dear received an sms from his colleague. Another colleague of his had passed away..innalillahi wa innalillahi rajiuun. A relatively young chap. His demised came as a shocked to everyone.

It seems nowadays, I've been hearing news of "sudden death". Scary.

It sets me thinking...what if it happen to me? Can I cope with it?

Me without income and with 2 kids.

Or what if death comes to me first. How will dear cope with the kids?

Scary. But its something worth thinking and planning for.

Death is inevitable.

2007-02-16T19:13:00.000+08:00

The kids celebrated chinese new year at school. Earier they were given cultural talks during the school assembly. They each brought 4 oranges for their teachers. 2 oranges for each teacher and ustazah.

In return, the kids were given a hongbao and an orange each. Inside the hongbao there's 2 chocolate gold coins :)

To all my chinese friends, especially to you Jess (if u're reading this)......Gong Xi Fa Cai...May your new year filled with wealth, happiness and good health.

For mores pics click here

2007-02-13T11:53:00.000+08:00

Hilarious.

Click here Enjet-Enjet Semut

Enjoy!!!

2007-02-07T12:26:00.001+08:00

My two kids are closed with each other. Hugging and kissing each other is a daily thing.

My girl has this habit, whenever she drinks her milk, she loves to lay her head on her brother's thigh.

More often than not, she'll fall asleep

Looking at them, melts my heart....all my tiredness and crappiness gone ...

2007-01-16T08:03:00.000+08:00

The feeling of missing of her is so tremendous
only god knows how I feel

She would have been 5 today.
but allah loves her more

I take comfort knowing she's in a much better place

Mama & Baba loves you, my dearest
We miss you very much

Al-fateha to Nurul Jannah Bte Erman Fazly

2007-01-13T22:26:00.001+08:00

Last tuesday on the way to send my kids to school, I fell, not once but thrice!! It was raining and the floor were slippery and I was carrying my daughter then.

After the third fall, Izz hold my hand and said, "Mama walk pelan-pelan eh, nanti jatuh" And he held my hand till we reached the bus stop.

For 2 days my butt and hip were aching and I'm having pelvic pain. The nite after the fall, Dear applied hot pack for me. But by Friday, my pelvic pain still didn't go away and it'll get worse each time I walk too much or stand too long.

Last nite, I made an appointment for a massage. After the massage earlier today, that nenek gave me some stuff for me to drink and bathe with.

I brought my own kain batik for the massage

temu lawak.
To grate and mix with hot water. Filter before drink

jamu.
Mix a teaspoon of the jamu with hot water before drinking

daun serai wangi.
To boil and use the water for bathing.

I fell asleep soon after I reached home after the massage. My pelvic pain seems much better.

Will monitor for a day or two, if the pain still did not subside, off to the clinic then.

2007-01-12T18:16:00.000+08:00

School just started last Monday.

Last nite Nuha already started to show sign of catching a cold. Her nose slightly blocked, her body slightly warm and she started to feel cranky.

Seeing her falling sick, makes me feel guilty for sending her to school early.

Sometimes I wonder the "wise-ness" of my decisions in sending her to school at the age of 2.

Today there will be no school for Nuha but to the clinic she will goes.

Cepat baik ye nak...

2007-01-09T18:59:00.000+08:00

Nuha 2nd day of school. After what happened yesterday, I was quite afraid that she wouldn't want to go school. As I put on her uniform she didn't resist.

We reached the school 15mins before time. Loiter outside the school. A few parents approached me and enquired about yesterday incident. Most of them saw it. Only then I found out that same boy pulled Nuha's hair. Somehow I missed it.

Soon I overheard an old lady talking on the hp. Eh ..eh ni tak pasang telinga tau...but she was talking loudly that its impossible not to overhear.

The conversation something like this.... "that boy beats everybody. I was so embarrassed. Everyone was looking at us..."

Then I saw that boy, I shall call him boy S. He walked passed me and Nuha...but as he passed by Nuha, he beat Nuha's arm. A lady hurried took him away.

That I overhead the old lady said "see see he beat people again, ya allah ..."

Now I understand, the old lady was his guardian ...maybe grandma.

When its time to go into the assembly area, Nuha practically pulled me in. Tak sabar nak masuk budak tu. Once in the assembly area, parents weren't allowed to go in, alhamdulillah she didn't cry.

Tak sabar nak masuk

But I saw that boy S, was crying to get out. But a teacher stopped him. Kesian pulak tengok dia pekik2 gitu.

By the time I fetched Nuha home, she still didn't cry.

Coming out from school.

Way to go Nuha! Mama & Baba proud of you!!

Ohh ....some teachers there, referred to Nuha as "Izz Afyq's sister" Hmmm ...pofular jugak si Izz ni

2007-01-08T20:20:00.000+08:00

My girl started school today. The day started off alright. She went into the assembly with me and her brother. Sent Izz to queue with his classmates while I remained with Nuha. She was very curious with her surroundings. It seems almost everything fascinated her. As usual she didn't sit still but wanted to run towards her brother.

Then we moved to her classroom. While every students were listening to her teacher, she and 2 - 3 other students were busy playing with toys. In their own world.

Not long later a boy tried to snatch her toy that's when she started crying. Hmm....biasa la kids. However her teacher and I interfered. And she stopped crying when she was distracted with a paper and a crayon. Soon its time for me to leave her with her teachers.

When I left her, she was engrossed playing. It was such a relief seeing her didn't cry even when I wasn't around.

Shortly later I heard her crying. I peeped and saw, that same boy, pushed and smacked her! I rushed in. He was still smacking her when I reached their side. He kept trying to slap Nuha as I tried to stop him. Till a teacher took him away.

Seriously at that point of time.....I was angry.

In my mind where's the boy's mother? Why didn't she stop the boy? I knew he came with his mom.....but I didn't recognize which one is his mother.

I can understand if kids attack each other. Its not that the kids are being mean but its their way of reacting to their surroundings. Its their way of dealing with their feelings.

But as parents I believe we have a duty to stop our kids when they tried to hurt anyone.

Its only later that I found out who's the parents are. Both mother and father were outside of the classroom all along. And they just looked at what their son did!!

Maybe I'm over reacting. I'm just a mother. If anyone hurt my kids, of course I'll feel their pain.

After that incident, I tried to pacify her. Passed her to her teacher and I left the classroom with a heavy heart. She cried and cried till she vomited. My poor girl.

This is the 1st incident where she cried till she vomited.

She only stopped crying when I came to take her home. She was quite affected by the whole thing. She just remained silence the whole time we were with her. Till she fell asleep.

The crying must have drained her out. I just hope she wasn't badly traumatize that she refused to go school tomorrow.

2007-01-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

The 1st day of school Izz brought his own school bag as the Iman bag will only be issued on the 1st day of school. Dear took leave. The whole family sent him to school...macam nak berangkat ke mane jer :) On the way to school he was his usual happy self. However when its time to go in, he refused to. So I myself took him to the assembly area. Once there, he saw there's lots of other students and he's forgotten about me.

When he left school later that afternoon, Dear asked him..
Dear: Izz like school?
Izz: Like
Dear: Izz ada friend?
Izz: Ada
Dear: Izz nak go school tomorrow
Izz nods his head. :)

The 2nd day of school its just the 3 of us. Dear left for work. Like the 1st day he was ok on the way to school. But refused to go in when we reached his school. But once inside the assembly area, he was ok.

I just hope he'll be alright by next week. Nuha has yet to starts her class. She'll be starting next week. I'm more worried for her as its her 1st time to school. And it will be the 1st time we left her with strangers.

Click here for pics

2006-12-29T18:25:00.000+08:00

A few nites back, I dreamt of Nurul Jannah.
Like one of my many dreams
Its always vague

I always cudnt remember what it's all about.
But each time I woke up, I know I just had a dream about her.

I woke up its still very early in the morning, its still dark.
I miss her so much

I still remembered how she looked like.
How she came out soft.
Silent
Nary a single cry.

Until at that time, I still hold a hope that miracles will happen
Even after listening to 3 doctors opinion
Even after looking at the scan.

She laid still in a box

That's not how I want to remember her
Not lying in a box

I want to remember holding her in my arms
I want to remember how she feels like
I want to remember how she smells like

Back then, the nurse allowed me to see her
But I wasn't allowed to hold her.
Because of the bonding thing

Sometimes, I regretted that I didn't insist on holding her.
At that time I remembered I looked at her.
Trying to remember every detail about her.
How perfect she looks.

I looked at her till my visions are blurred.
I didn't realize I was crying.

Sometimes I want to talk about how I feel about her
But I don't want to hear the standard answers
About how god knows whats best for me
About how I should redha

I know all that without anyone telling me
Those are not answers
Those are not comforting words
It would not soothe my aching heart.
It would not take my pain away

And I thot time will heal all wounds.
How I wish its true.

2006-12-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

My brother's enggagement was on his 24th birthday. It wasn't exactly an engagement ceremony. My parents and my siblings meet up the girl's family for meminang & terus masuk cincin.

Hubby was the photograher and I have the honour to put on the engagement ring on my new sil. It was a simple ceremony. And fuss free I would say.

For more pics click here

2006-12-23T11:37:00.001+08:00

We've been planning to bring the kids to Jurong Bird Park since last month. Dear's ballot for the company's card to JBP was approved. As the day draws nearer, we almost cancelled the outing becos of the wet weather.

In fact, the nite before our outing, Dear and I were making alternative plan, in case the weather didn't permit us to go.

But alhamdulillah, we can see rays of the sun that Wednesday morning and the whole time we were there it didn't rain. Weather was good. It wasn't hot either. Redup redup saje.

I made fillet sandwiches, tuna mayo sandwiches, some hotdog and cuttlefish ball for the trip.

The outing was good. The kids enjoyed it, especially Izz. It's Izz's 2nd trip to Jurong Bird Park. The 1st was during the June holidays with his teachers and friends.

For more pics click HERE

2006-12-06T14:38:00.000+08:00

PGL Musical

Enjoy!!

2006-12-04T16:02:00.001+08:00

I first watched Gubra by Yasmin Ahmad. I fell in love with the story instantly.

Then I later found out that there's Sepet before Gubra. Now after watching Sepet, I found out there's Rabun.

Been looking for vcd/dvd Rabun. Anyone knows where I can get them?

For those who have not watch Gubra or Sepet, can

click here for Gubra
click here for Sepet

and after Gubra there's Mukhsin. But I'm not to sure whether its out yet.

2006-11-27T12:10:00.003+08:00

Went to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang the Musical. It was awesome !! I could watch it over and over again. The song was great. The cast was powerful. The whole show was really superb.

My favourites were the scenes between Hang Tuah and Gusti Puteri Raden Adjeng Retno Dumilah, the ones when they first met at nite and the nite before Hang Tuah left Majapahit.

Personally, I still prefer M Nasir as Hang Tuah. Stephens speaks with a slight slang and he's too good looking as Hang Tuah.

Right after the show we queue to get the autographs of the main cast. There was such a long queue. Luckily we were at the foyer stalls, so we were one those few who managed to queue before the rest came.

There were souvenirs too. We wanted to buy the cd but it was sold out. Dear came back to the esplanade the following nite just to get the cd, for us and for sil. Now that I've got the cd, boleh dengar lagu over and over again.

Datin Tiara as Gusti Puteri Raden Adjeng Retno Dumilah

the autographs

More pics click here

On another note
Last saturday was sil birthday

Bon anniversaire ma tres chere,
Je te souhaite la bonne sante, le succes et le bonheur toujours.
I wish you good health, success and happiness always.
Love you lots.

2006-11-24T12:15:00.001+08:00

BACKDATED POST

As usual before the school closed for the holidays, there will the Student Led Conference (SLC) which actually is the Meet the Parent session.

This time, Izz bag the Most Courteous Student award…hmm…this round of SLC I’m more mentally prepared to hear the glowing report of his character in school.

The last round of SLC which was held before the June school holiday,…being its my first time, I really I didn’t know what to expect.

When at that time Izz was given the “Young Ustaz Award”, my first thot was it’s a case of mistaken identity as each time I asked him to recite any doas, he’ll only recite doa makan & doa tidur. In actual fact, I was the one mistaken.

Based on the feedback from this teacher and ustazah, he’s such a different person in school. As my sil often remarked, this boy ada split personality la.

I believed in being proactive with regards my children’s education. Hence I’m often in touched with Izz’s teacher or Ustazah. I didn’t wait for the SLC to talk to them.

Some may say I’m kiasu. But if I have to be kiasu for for my kids benefit, then kiasu I’ll be.

As the last excursion to Sentosa will be the last time Izz will be meeting his playgroup teacher & ustazah, I get Izz to give them a token of appreciation

Nothing fancy or expensive la

one in blue

one in grey

one for each teacher....hope they like it

thats Izz on the way home from SLC.

my dear girl Sophie

Next year will be her turn to go Playgroup....wonder what will be her teacher's comments ....

2006-11-22T14:47:00.000+08:00

Last friday was excursion time for Iman adventurers!...This time to Sentosa Island.

Inter alia, they walked the Dragon Trail Nature Walk, visited Carslberg Sky Tower which offered panoramic view at 131m above sea level across Singapore right up to Malaysia & Indonesia Islands.

2006-11-11T13:24:00.001+08:00

Last friday was the last day of school for lil' Izz.

Next week will be the start of his school holidays aka will be the start of a very berserak rumah aka will be the start of a very busy and stressful me.

Yesterday I bought for him and Sophie assessment books. I hope to start them on the books next month. And hopefully it will keep them occupied. And hopefully the house will be less berserak.

Gonna be busy. Less time to blog.

But continue to tag me. Till then

2006-10-31T14:05:00.000+08:00

Look at what my kids have done ....

I don't know who's the culprit yet as I discovered after Izz left for school.

Ntah bila masa dorang tarik benda tu......haiz!

2006-10-31T09:04:00.000+08:00

Every year Hari Raya is filled with visiting houses and eating lots of good food. This year is no different.

My kids while waiting for hubby to reach home from sembahyang raya

Hubby came home and bought breakfast for the kids

After 2 years of wearing yellow, this year Red is the chosen colour. But most photos are taken with hubby's SLR.

As usual, 1st house will be mom's house.

Sophie in her red kebaya.

Sophie with kuzin Nur Sarah

Before all of us left for grandma's place, we...bersalaman dan bermaafan

Thats me in red and the one in green is my 3rd sis

After all the anak-anak meminta maaf, the cucu-cucus turn pulak

Our last stop is mil's place. Once there, hubby bathe the kids and changed them. There, the kids spent most of their time in sil's room. They watched vcd and make a mess in her room.

Izz, Sophie and kuzin Sarah Adriana

Sophie with tired looking sil. She's tired melayan karenah her nieces and nephew :)

By evening, Izz was so tired

that he fell asleep on sil's bed.

More raya stories on next update....if i have the mood la.

2006-10-27T13:43:00.000+08:00

Today Izz will be having Raya celebration in school. He's to put on his baju raya and bring some kuih to school. I packed for him some kek lapis prune, chocolate chip cookies and cornflake cookies.

Kuih anyone?

...off to school ...

Sophie seeing Izz taking photos,....

.... also wanted to take photo

While waiting for his school transport....sempat bergambar

2006-10-18T14:09:00.000+08:00

Wishing All,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN
SEMOGA BERBAHAGIA BERLEBARAN BERSAMA YANG TERSAYANG

Just something to share
Watch this

2006-10-16T14:09:00.001+08:00

Not too long ago, there's was an incident that involve my son and my hp. The results of which, some of my hp function was spoilt.

A few days back, Dear bought me a new phone

and it comes with this

Thank you dear!!! Luv u many many.

2006-09-27T15:31:00.001+08:00

Finally had my stiches removed today. Yeay!

No more visits to CGH. No more weekly visits to the therapist.

With the wound dressings, it often feels itchy. Now my wrist feels liberated... :)

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Oh yea! KakSri thanks for the recipe Nasi Tomato. Kan ku cuba nanti ... insya allah.

2006-09-19T21:03:00.001+08:00

When my mom first heard I had to go for surgery, she wanted me to stay with her for a week. She said she didn't want to take risk of having my stitches opened up with me doing the housework and handling my kids. After all, she's been taking care of me after the previous 2 ops.

However this time, its only a day surgery. Moreover it coincides with Dear's reservist and my elder son going to school, etc. so it's a bit of a hassle. Not so much for me, but more for Dear.

So this time I decided not to stay at her place. Initially I was worried. Fearing that I would upset her or that she would misunderstand. There is also the fear of how I'm gonna do the housework, handle my kids, etc.

But, alhamdulillah, things went smoothly.

Mom not upset or anything. Since on my surgery day, Dear happened to be on graveyard shift, so I slept over for a nite. And I'm glad that I slept over as that nite I was really suffering from the side effects of GA. Dear fetched us home the following day.

The rest of the stuffs like housework and the kids, just fall into place, with Dear's help, of course.

After going thru some therapies, alhamdulillah, my hand are almost 90% back to normal. Right now, I'm just having problem bending my wrist forward. And I just have to make sure I don't knock my wrist against anything. At times like this, some times, you just tend to be a bit clumsy and have the tendency to bumped or knocked into stuff.

Thanks all for the well wishes.

2006-09-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

Had a minor surgery on my wrist.

My first ops to be under general anesthetic. My previous two ops were under regional anesthetic.

Often I saw on tv show, before a patient lost his consciousness, a medical staff will talk or start counting. For me, I was told I'll be given oxygen mask, then next moment I lost my consciousness...in a split second.

When I opened my eyes, I was told the surgery is over, but soon I lost consciousness again. Thereafter I drifted in and out of consciousness. By the time I fully regained my consciousness, an hour had passed.

Got a shocked when I look at my hand

Totally didn't expect, the bandage to be so big.

The next 24hrs, I was like a sleeping zombie. One moment I was sitting down, the next I was asleep.

By the next day, I had such a huge headache, guessed due to the side effect of the GA or probably due to too much sleeping. But other than the headache and the pain on my wrist, I was pretty much my own self.

Thanks for all the messages.... you-know-who-you-are. :)

2006-09-01T16:04:00.000+08:00

Inside my fridge, is always filled with these ...

... my children's different types of medicines

..their fever medicine; panadol for fever and brufen for high fever

... different types cough medicines, Actifed Co, Dhasedyl, Silomat ...

.... different types medicine for phlegm and runny nose; Rhinataol, Chlormine, Actifed, Rhiniramine ....

... and a must-have .... Ventolin for airways

My fridge is just like a mini pharmacy.

2006-08-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

That lil nephew of mine just received a baby brother this morning .... Congrats to my sis on the birth of .....

.... Aiman Yusuf!

Hapi 1 day old Aiman Yusuf!
Auntie Long will visit you soon baby....

... Aren't baby a gem??? ...(wink @ hubby)

2006-08-17T07:10:00.001+08:00

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2006-08-15T13:55:00.001+08:00

Last saturday we went to view the fireworks @ Raffles Place.

While we were at BK, we bumped into my other bestfren. Thus we viewed the fireworks together.

Izz on his Baba's shoulder viewing the fireworks.

The fireworks

Our view are not that great. Haiz,... we spent too much time @ BK, thats why ....

After the fireworks we sat and enjoyed our snacks. Izz really enjoyed himself with Abid and Hannah.

My bestfren's kids and mine .... Hannah, Izz and Abid

Looking at the crowd .....

... going towards mrt station, we decided to walk along Boat Quay making our way to Clarke Quay station

The kids bedtime was usually around 9pm. That nite, although it was way past their bedtime, there were still very energetic

The kids were still very active in the train home, although both of them were looking very tired.

Once we reached home, we washed up the kids and they dozed off soon after. They must be very tired.

2006-08-10T15:21:00.001+08:00

Celebrated my birthday last tuesday on the 8th of August. Hubby was on leave since Monday and only back to work today. :)

Also last tuesday Izz had national day celebration in school. His 1st national day celebration in school.

Izz in his red and white attire

That afternoon we fetched Izz from school before proceding to have out "dunch" (dinner cum lunch) ;)

Izz doing some colouring while waiting for the food to arrive.

thats Izz... busy eating my Firehouse ...

Later while we were at Cafe Ritazza, bumped into my bestfriend, the one who matchmaked with hubby

Az with Sophie

That nite around 10pm I was suprised by this

Received this from my sils

Thanks dears.

The following day on National Day, went to mom's. Another celebration with my parents and siblings. Mom cooked sup tulang for me....yippeee!

Izz & Irfan busy blowing candles on the cake

The rest of the photos still with my brother, maybe I'll update other time.

2006-08-03T18:20:00.000+08:00

Whenever i brought my children to the clinic, my son without fail will play with the spare stethoscope.

See for yourself ... Izz, doctor-wannabe... (insya allah)

Checking his sister

He'll checked together with the doctor

2006-07-27T14:26:00.000+08:00

... tumbletots anyone?

....... Let's go in and out of tunnel

Part 1

Part 2

2006-07-13T13:12:00.002+08:00

This morning, i brought the kids out for breakfast at BK. Its been awhile since i last had my turkey bacon crossanwich. And around this time it wasnt crowded, so its a good time to bring the kids out.

Sophie & Izz @ BK

The kids eat nothing else, only harshbrown and ice milo

Izz enjoying his harshbrown.

Later we made a short stop at the library before heading home. Would have stayed longer in the library but Izz needed to go school.

And on the way home, Izz wanted prata so stopover at the nearby coffeeshop. Hmm ... this morning, my boy has a huge appetite.

2006-06-26T13:30:00.000+08:00

For the past few days, I've been bringing the kids to the library.

I'm not up for an entry. Here's photo blogging.

Library Trip 1

Library Trip 2

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Today, school reopens. I've back my 2-3 hours of peace time, .... finally.

2006-06-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

Love is not a simple thing. Some says it is based on friendship, some on trust, while others on sharing. But for many, there comes a time when it must also be based on forgiveness.

~hubby~

2006-06-06T21:16:00.001+08:00

Izz went for his 1st school excursion last wednesday. The school brought them to Jurong Bird Park.

Outside his school while waiting for his teacher.

The nite before, I bought a disposable camera. Hoping that his teacher can snap a few of Izz photos together with his school & classmates. Although I wasn't sure that his teacher will accede to my request, but, alhamdulillah, Izz's teacher willing to help me.

I owe you one, teacher huda.

Some of the peektures taken by teacher huda.

When Izz reached home that afternoon, he was so tired that he fell asleep while watching his Hi5. That nite he slept thru till the next morning.

Gosh! He must be very very tired. Usually he'll wake up at around 5am, came to my room & snuggled in between me & hubby.

2006-05-25T14:35:00.002+08:00

Izz taking his nap at the moment & Sophie on my lap. Her tiny fingers trying to press the keyboard.....

Yesterday I went to Izz's school for the Student-Led-Conference (SLC), which basically is a Meet-the-Parents sessions.

Spoke to Izz's teacher & ustazah. I was told he's a quiet & obedient boy. My response was "HUH? REALLY?"

Izz quiet? Obedient? Very unbelievable.

Whats more unbelievable was Izz received the "Young Ustaz" class award.

Believe it or not, I'm one very proud mommy :D :D. I told mil about it, she's even more excited than me. 1st cucu la kata kan.

I also got to do an art work with Izz. Well, actually he did most of it himself, I'm busy taking photos.

Izz doing his artwork

Izz with his form teacher

Outside his school main entrance.

2006-05-25T08:42:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging since my last post. Been quite busy with the kidz & a few activities.

Last friday, we went to the airport to send sil off. It was a last minute decisions. While at the airport met my best fren who was on duty that nite.

Nina with Sophie.

Nina supposed to be back early this morning @0024hrs. Have yet to call her.

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Last sunday, I went on a 1 day trip to JB with mom & mil. Didn't take much photo as I didn't bring my camera with me.

Our 1st stop was Jusco Tebrau City, where mil bought a nice set of chain & ear rings for Nina. Mom & I bought floss bread & pizza. Mmmm...yummy!

Then we had seafood lunch@ Pasir Putih.

Where we had our lunch

Mom & mil waiting for their food

What's left of our meal ...... burp!

My view, from where I was sitting

After lunch, we spent 2+hrs shopping at Mini Kelantan, tu pun tak cukup. Mil bought quite a number of items to add up to her stocks. Mom also bought a number of fabrics materials. She only stopped buying when I stopped her, :D She bought me a nice fabric too.

I didn't spend as much as them. I've only bought 1 set for myself & 2 sets each for hubby & Izz.

Our last stop was R & R @ Gelang Patah before we head back for Singapore.

... Gosh! Sophie crying! She just woke up.

........ TO BE CONTINUED ...........

2006-05-19T15:26:00.000+08:00

Last wedneday we had dinner at Sakura International Buffet @ Downtown East. My parents & brothers joined us for dinner.

Some of my family members enjoying their food.

While waiting for my other brother to arrive, my children amused themselves at the play area

Had these as my appetiser....

.... as for my dessert .....

... oreo cheesecake & marble cheesecake with a cuppa of cappuccino.

Some peektures ofSophie .....

.... with her grandparents

.... enjoying her food

... with the latecomers - my bro & his gf

Halfway thru dinner my children started to be cranky as both of them were getting sleepy. We went off early leaving my parents & brothers to continue their dinner.

More peektures>

Sil leaving for Japan tonite. Sorry can't send you off dear.
Have a safe trip yea! Have fun!

2006-05-15T15:16:00.001+08:00

Last thursday, Izz gave me this

He made a mother's day card in school. Ever since he started school, I always look forward to receiving mother's day card from him. :)

Last saturday we had a mother's day cum birthday celebrations. Mother's day celebrations for my mom & birthday celebrations for my youngest bro.

the simple spread

Cake cutting sessions.

1 birthday boy &a; 3 kecoh toddlers.

My mom received mother's day prezzies from the 2 cucus

Later, my sis helped to trim Sophie's "cucuk-mata" fringe .....

... diam pulak budak ni.

the end results.

The two boys after dah terkinja-kinja, tak tau diam, they were soaked with perspire. Before we left, my dad helped to wash the 2 boys.

Izz & irfan having their shower.
They were having fun playing with the water in the pail.

Yesterday after jemputan, we went to mil's place @ BB.

Some peektures:-

Mil's feeding Sophie

Sophie, Izz & Cuzin Sarah

the two nieces with their mak usu.

2006-05-06T05:31:00.001+08:00

Its 5.30am.

Dear just left for his duty @ one of the polling stations.

Got to go, heard my bed calling me .....

Need a clear head before I cast my vote later ....

Vote wisely people

2006-04-27T15:50:00.002+08:00

2 weeks ago, I mailed 2 cheques to pay for my fire insurance and credit card bill. Both my cheques did not reached the addressees!!! Tak tau hilang ke mana.

I made a stopped cheque and was charged $30. Issuing bank told me although I've made a stopped a cheque, I'm still required to maintained sufficient funds in the account, cos, when the cheques are presented for payment, issuing bank will debit my account and then they'll credit back the following day. If there's insufficient funds, I'll be charged $50! .... Mengarut!

Then I spoke to payee/recipient of my cheque. I said that I've already made payment in cash, I wanted them, should the cheque reappeared later, not to present the cheque for payment but to return to me. But I was told that there was no such arrangement. Any returned cheque I'll be charged $30! $$$ lagi!!

I've emailed Singpost. I was told that they are unable to trace non-registered mail items. (I've expected this). However I was told to furnish recipient's complete addresses, for them to highlight to the Area Managers who will monitor the delivery to the areas of concern. Then the following day, I've received a reply from them

"Dear Mrs Faridah --

Thank you for your email of 25 April 2006.

We have checked with the delivery bases handling the delivery of mail to the stated addressees and they confirmed that nothing is lying undelivered at their office. Mails posted locally will be delivered within two working days and as we do not maintain records on the processing/delivery of ordinary mail, we regret to inform that we are not able to ascertain conclusively why the addressees fail to receive them.

We are regret the inconvenience caused."

Guess my mails lost in bermuda triangle ....

Whom can I blame????

2006-04-21T20:00:00.001+08:00

My baby girl attempt at praying

2006-04-17T10:40:00.001+08:00

I love watching my kidz played together....ermm... whenever they are not squabbling over a toy.

See I'm a doctor... Dr Izz.

Adik let's play together

Let abang take your temperature .....(and baby sophie docilely allowed Izz to insert a "thermometer" in her mouth)

We brought up our kids with lots of hugs & kisses. My boy hugs & kisses us and his sister everyday. And now baby Sophie picks up the same habit.

Sometimes when the both of them are watching tv together, she would just go and hugs her brother.

My kidz just love hugging each other

2006-04-08T13:27:00.000+08:00

Anyone know where can I get 2nd hand Glenn Doman's kits ???

2006-04-04T08:40:00.001+08:00

While I was @ Metro yesterday, my girl fell in love with hats.

She grabbed a hat and put it on her face, not on her head :)

She tried other design too

Her's and my favourite

I mms-ed this photo to my sis, with the following message
"Nuha suka ni, ada sesiapa nak sponsor?"

Immediately she replied
"Nuha belilah, nanti cik ganti $"

Isn't it awfully sweet of her? I was just trying to be cheeky, never thot she would actually replied and agreed to it. Rezeki Sophie.

I let her tried a few more hats before deciding to buy this

In the afternoon while we waited for Izz, Sophie decided to sashay under the void deck with her "still-bau-kedai" hat.

When we reached home, she refused to go in. She still wanted to walk along the corridor .....

..... masih nak bergaya dengan topi baru ....

2006-04-02T23:54:00.003+08:00

Today our plan was to attend a birthday celebration @ woodlands.

However, in the mid afternoon, hubby was informed that he's supposed to attend a wedding @ Nee Soon South CC. Somehow, the wedding invitation did not reach us .... maybe it got lost en route. A few weeks back, the groom's father did invite hubby over the phone.

We rushed getting us & the kids ready to go the wedding before going to woodlands. While getting ready, my best friend sms that she wanted to drop by after maghrib. I replied "ok"

Lil Izz in cabby on the way to the wedding.

We did not stayed long at the wedding. Hubby catch up with a few frenz, then we off to a birthday party.

My girl busy membongkar goodie box ....mmmm....whats nice to eat .....

During cake cutting

Here's my fren busy packing for me foodstuff to bring home .......save sikit, tak payah masak :)

From woodland we rushed home as mom & sis wanted to drop by. Sis wanted to go to the pasar malam @ my area. Hmmm ... it seems today there's lots of last minute plan & guests.

At the pasar malam I bought apam balek, putu piring & keropok lekor for my guest tonite. I'm also gonna serve them lopis ....mmmm...yum yum ...

Here's Izz & Hannah, my best fren's daughter. Both of them are of the same age.

2006-03-27T08:27:00.004+08:00

Went to Family Day @ Zoo yesterday.

We decided to go in the morning to avoid the crowd. First time for the kids.

Baby Sophie engrossed watching the animals

Eh, Izz teropong sape tu?...................ooo a Giraffe

...baba nak giraffe...

..pleesh baba...I want to bring home

Baby Sophie with the lamas...

...at the Australia Outback .......

adik, tu kangaroo tau...

..kita tunggu kangaroo bangun...

tak bangun pun....

Some pics of the zoo residents taken ....

White tiger

Kangaroo ................................................Camel

Zebras..............................................elephant

By the afternoon, both kids were so exhausted that

they fell asleep

Normally by this hour both kids would have been busy creating lots of ruckus & mayhem, this morning both are still sound asleep. They must be dead tired from yesterday jaunt.

Today i get to enjoy my breakfast of toast bread with peanut butter and a cup of hot sugarless coffee ........... in peace.

2006-03-16T16:59:00.001+08:00

Faces of Sophia

Hi!

Looking up

Squat down

Getting up

Alamak hidung gatal la

Tanak amek gambar la

..eh?! Masih amek gambar lagi? ..

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My baby turns 15 months today
Happy 15 months birthday, love